I’m going to try to explain how I feel today. Some of you will be able to relate. You’ll know from your own personal experience what I’m trying to describe.
Some of you won’t. You don’t have a reference point in your life the compares to this. This post is for you.
It’s Sunday morning, a sabbath for me. I’m at Starbucks before going to church. I’m getting ready. I’m thinking. Reading the Bible. Praying, but without words, almost without thoughts. More like feeling a prayer.
And. I. Ache. Inside.
It’s emotional. It’s physical. It’s spiritual.
Yearning. Craving. Needing. Thirst. Hunger. Clinging. Reaching. Almost desperate. Somewhat tearful.
It’s a like a sadness, but not. More like a loneliness for the only Person who can satisfy the ache inside.
Do You Know What This Is?
It’s the God-given, God-shaped hole in my soul crying out to be filled, united, with my Creator, Redeemer, my Father.
If you find in yourself a desire which no earthly thing can satisfy, the logical conclusion must be that you are made for another world. – C. S. Lewis
He’s given me a foretaste of His companionship through the Spirit of Christ in me, as He is in all Christians. But the foretaste doesn’t satisfy. It merely teaches that God alone can satisfy. I may commune with Him in prayer, but it’s not the full communion the soul craves.
Am I always so emotionally aware of this longing? No. It’s rare. Why today? I have no idea. But I know that from time to time, each of God’s children are blessed with a hyper-awareness of the distance that still separates us from God. And they long to have that distance closed.
The Ache for God
It’s Jacob wrestling with the Angel of the Lord crying, “I will not let you go unless you bless me!”
It’s Moses pleading with God on the mountain, “Show me your glory!”
It’s David singing, “I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God.”
It’s Paul’s self-abandon to lose all if only he may be “found in Him.”
hanging on the cross…
“My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?”
Why Did Jesus Ache for God?
Because He volunteered. He died a willing substitute, the righteous for the unrighteous, bearing God’s penalty for our sins and suffering the ultimate heart-ache.
The ultimate death.
And in so doing, He purchased God’s favor toward us.
Grace is free for us. But not for Him. The promise of heaven had a price.
Now, He lives. God has exalted Him to His throne. He prays for His people. He has prepared our home. He promised to come for us.
And I ache for home. For Him. And I say with the Apostle John,
“Even so. Come, Lord Jesus!”
Bring me to my God.
What is it like when you ache for God?
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4 thoughts on “The Ache for God”
When I ache for God, I sometimes cry bc I just want him in my heart and to feel his love but being confined to this body of flesh, attached to this world I hate, I can’t help but feel as though I serving a life sentence apart from him. I cry out to him at times, hoping that he will not extend my sentence to an eternity apart from his glory. I need God so much, it hurts. I try to explain it to my wife and friends but they don’t understand it. I just want to cry and at times when I lay down at night, I do. I want to go home but when I plead with God to take me home, his answer is always the same, “There is work to be done.” Sadly, I don’t quite understand what he means.
John, I understand your feelings of longing for a heavenly home. It it a good longing, but can go too far, if you despair of this life. Take heart in these truths: a) Life in this world is still a gift of God’s grace for you to enjoy. b) God enters life with us through the work of Christ and the indwelling presence of His Holy Spirit. c) You can be assured of God’s love, favor, presence, blessing, acceptance simply by trusting what Jesus did for you on the cross. We call this assurance of salvation by grace alone, through faith alone, in Christ alone. d) Your life can have meaning and purpose and joy as an instrument of God’s grace. You will discover it as you walk with Christ by faith.
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