HIS PAIN, my pain

Living with depression has deepened my love for Jesus.

There are times I have sat hugging my knees in my chair weeping from the intense pain of depression. (Those of you who have experienced depression know what I mean.) My soul cries out to Jesus, thinking He really doesn’t understand what I am going through.

Caravaggio's Crowning with Thorns, 1607

Caravaggio’s Crowning with Thorns, 1607

Then the Holy Spirit turns my mind to the Cross. I think of the excruciating physical pain of having a crown of thorns smashed on your head, and spikes driven through your feet and wrists. Then I remember His misery as He felt the deathly blows of God’s punishment for sin and the terror of abandonment by His Father.

Jesus volunteered for His pain, and not merely to be an example of sacrificial love, but to redeem me from my sin, my brokenness, my pain.

I am silenced and awed.

As my mind fills with the huge truth of it, my heart fills with humbled gratitude. Is the depression gone? No. But as I feel my pain, I realize His pain was much more than mine is, or ever will be. I see the truth that He truly is a God who can sympathize with me. Jesus understands pain. And because He understands pain, He understands me.

And I love Him the more for it.

He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows , and familiar with suffering… – Isaiah 53:3


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7 thoughts on “HIS PAIN, my pain

  1. You know, I feel utterly incapable of responding in any meaningful way to your beautiful essays, your thoughts that exhude so much pain and love and angst and wisdom. You already have a solution better than any I could offer, but I can empathize, I can sympathize, I can love and I can pray. And so I shall.

  2. I struggle with these things also and thanks so much for the reminder (even though inside I know it) that He has been there and His grace is sufficient in all of my circumstances. I love “Average Us” and how you both share. Thank you, Diane

  3. As a Raggamuffin in the Gospel of Christ, I can empathize as well. Thank you for reposting this message. His Grace is sufficient and never ceases to amaze me!

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